Source: Tenor

Decision: the act of or need for making up one’s mind. Choice: the right, power, or opportunity to choose.

Just for reference

Holding myself accountable has been one of my personal growth goals for 2020, so far so good because I know when I’m about to make a bad decision or a poor choice.

I know what you are thinking, I won’t have to hold myself accountable if I avoid bad decisions and poor choices . . . wrong, I still do it and last week was my biggest screw up and learning lessons. There’s a story I used to read in primary school about a girl name Jenny, for some unbeknownst reason SHE JUST COULDN’T DO ANYTHING RIGHT. Whatever task assigned to her would go incomplete and quite messy.

Jenny is me, I am Jenny well at least for this moment. I can’t please everybody but I really try to and I don’t know why I’m like this! I attempt to prioritize me and I’m deemed selfish. Wonderful people of the Internet, I feel insufficient for the people around me, I don’t feel enough I’m stretching, overstretching and now I’m just tired.

Source: GIPHY

Making bad decisions and poor choices were things I once ran away from, I wanted to be perfect in the eyes of my family and closest friends especially my mother and not affect those around me but I’M HUMAN! I won’t stop being me, I have to learn from the bad and at the end of the day I have to accept the consequences of my actions whether they’re good or bad; that is accountability for me.

I’m expected to be the goody two shoes for the rest of my life, I’m sorry to disappoint but I’m growing up, I’m learning and I can’t meet everyone’s expectations. My teenage years weren’t this complicated but maybe detaching myself from that people pleaser shell is going to keep making my 20’s challenging.

Thanks for reading, Happy Sunday everyone!


  1. After reading this I think that (outside of the great choice for accountability) you may also need to reframe the way you look at some things:
    Not doing what is expected isn’t automatically a bad decision. Just a tough one. And a choice that doesn’t work out isn’t necessarily poor, but hard (and you don’t always get hard things right on a first try).

    When you start looking at what you did gain/learn instead of at what you did wrong is when you really start growing, I think. At least – that’s how I try to approach it anyway 😇🤷‍♀️


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