I briefly mentioned career happiness in one or two blogs and if you’ve read any of the two then you know I consider it a life goal. What do I mean by that? Basically, I don’t want to be stuck doing a job I hate for the rest of my life so one of my goals is to be doing something I love or that makes sense to me.
Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want to do career-wise, last year March after I officially completed my Associate degree in Accounting, I was sure I would have started my Bachelor’s degree in September (online) and be working as a full-time accounting clerk. It’s January 19, 2021, and I can confirm I’m doing none of the above. Instead, I’m still at my part-time job as a teacher’s assistant at a middle-class preschool (I had this job since college and stayed after I graduated) and I’m writing blogs and poetry.
I’m not miserable I promise (pinky swear) but I feel unfulfilled, like I’m not doing what I’m meant to do in life (not that I know what I should be doing in life).
I started blogging after graduation then I was writing poetry again and that’s when my creativity came back; it felt sooo good. Two weeks ago, I compiled all my love poems about him and turned it into a book and guess what? I’m turning my pain into gain because I want to self-publish my book! I have no idea how I found myself doing this but I’m doing it.
Still something is missing . . .
All my primary and high school reports would have comments like ‘Cassaniek is going to do great things’ or ‘Cassaniek’s future is bright and she will excel immensely’, back then when I read those comments I was optimistic and even more confident in my potential but now I’m wondering . . . Does that Cassaniek with untapped potential and bright future still exist?
This is my life . . .