This should be a New Year’s Eve post yet I’m writing it on Christmas Eve and I’m okay with this. I’m publishing it as soon as I’m done writing because there are no real reasons to delay.
I’ve been struggling with a lot of things. My writer’s block. Forcing this Christmas spirit to start spiriting. Trying to find more time in 24 hours to do more for myself and those around me. Problematic personal life and hard mental days. Just overall struggling.
I kind of forgot that it’s been a hard year for most of us, we’ve all been struggling in different ways and things haven’t been easy. Some of us might be experiencing some light at the end of the dark tunnel (finally) while others are still stuck in this dark tunnel (I’m sorry). Wherever you are, I’m sending you lots of hugs and I hope you have someone to talk to.
Our minds try to convince us that we should weather this storm alone, DON’T LISTEN TO IT! Reach out to a trusted friend, confide in a romantic partner, call a family member or speak to a therapist. Whichever one is more ideal for you, choose it. My biggest mistake was thinking I was alone and I had to fight my problems alone.
It’s been a longgggggggggg yearGirl In Her Twenties
This pandemic is on its next season that feels never-ending and at this point I’m tired of watching. It has taken so much but done so much at the same time, I don’t know how to feel towards it anymore. Unemployment, depression, death, financial hardship are things it continues to leave behind in its path. It has definitely made the year longer than it should have been!
We’ve loss a lot this year, to be here right now is a true blessing. Sometimes I wonder if I’m surviving 2021 because there are moments when I feel like I’m not. There are days when I’m so frustrated that I have to seek God more because without faith I would have lost my mind.
I have no clue what you’ve been going through. I can’t feel your pain, exhaustion, hopelessness, frustration, depression or confusion. However, I’ve been in similar spaces and I want to say “it’s okay to feel how you are feeling. Be kinder and a lot more patient with yourself. Find someone to share those unexpressed thoughts and feelings with. Release that heavy feeling a little. It’s not going to disappear instantly but you will feel lighter”
Happy Holidays everyone!