Work/Life Balance . . . I GOT A JOB!

Work/Life Balance . . . I GOT A JOB!

A few months ago, I wrote about how being unemployed sucked and being at home was starting to make me weary

Well beautiful people of the internet, I got a job!

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Feeling ALL the FEELS

Feeling ALL the FEELS

I haven’t been feeling my best over the last couple of days and it was this feeling of less than good that led me to taking a mini break from blogging. It’s hard to write when I’m having really bad mental days, my mind is just blank and inspiration is severely lacking in those moments.

Yesterday I woke up feeling stuck in my head and indifferent. Sundays usually brought me peace and has always been my favourite day but yesterday morning it wasn’t like that for me. I just wanted to wrap myself up in the blanket on my bed and stay hidden in my room.

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I Cried Today

I Cried Today

After listening to Lewis Capaldi Before You Go today, I cried . . . the loud, tears streaming down my face and praying to God type of crying. Don’t be alarm, I’m doing okay-ish I just had a moment where I needed to release the unreleased. If crying was an extracurricular activity, it would be one I participate in frequently. I love a good cry.

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What Happens Next?

What Happens Next?

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After a full weekend of crying, mental breakdowns, numbness, slowness and constant replays of a car accident I didn’t feel like fully processing, I realized I’m in pieces. The ugly truth I refused to acknowledge is I have unasked for trauma now. Undiagnosed post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) maybe?

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I’VE MISSED BLOGGING

I’VE MISSED BLOGGING

What was supposed to be a 2 week hiatus turned into 2 months! Unbelievable, I never thought I would have stopped writing for so long but I wasn’t in the best headspace and if you were reading my blog then you might have noticed it too. Nothing felt right, I couldn’t come on here and pretend as if I was okay when I really wasn’t. I took a step back . . . one I still don’t regret.

Take a break, breathe in, breathe out and re-center yourself

Girl in Her Twenties

I NEEDED THAT BREAK! I look the same physically but I feel like a better version of myself now. My grandpa was buried last week Friday (may God continue to let his soul rest in peace) and it gave me the closure I needed to start picking up the pieces and make sense of this chaotic puzzle that is my life.

There were a few things that I had to let go during my grieving process and the biggest one was my constant need to show up for everyone else except myself. I LET A LOT THINGS GO and I have no intentions of relocating them; I don’t want nor need them anymore in my life. The funny thing is, the moment I let go was the moment the things meant for me started to find me. I smile just thinking about it.

I’m ready to write again, I’m ready to read blogs and relish in good content.

Did you guys miss me? I missed y’all ❤️

Sometimes I Want To Skip The PROCESS

Sometimes I Want To Skip The PROCESS

After reading Daiana’s blogpost on loving your process, it is also part the result, I realize sometimes that I wish I could skip the bad parts of my life and be left with the good and best times. I know, the bad parts/moments is where the growth happens and those don’t last forever but they sure take a long time to past!

There are some things that I can wait for and others that get me extremely impatient, for example I can wait a whole year for season 3 of Derry Girls to return on Netflix (it’s been 1 year and a half maybe, yet I’m still here calm, cool and collected) while waiting for a better job opportunity frustrates me.

Here is another example, my friend has been crushing on a guy for months now, we buy from his mini-mart twice a week just so she can see him but never talk to him, I told her I couldn’t do it I would have told him how I felt the moment I was sure I wanted to know more about him and not wait months, see what I mean? My level of patience depends on the situation.

I used to ask for the wisdom of Solomon when I was younger but I should have asked God for the patience of Job.

Girl in Her Twenties

This week all I wanted was to fast forward the bad bits when I should have experienced them for what they were, the obstacles before the breakthrough. I remedied the situation by having my night owl 2:00 A.M. moment this morning, I allowed myself to breathe and I just wrote about how I was feeling and let my thoughts take over! It’s been a while since I’ve been able to do that and I woke up this morning feeling more like myself.

I’ve paused a few good moments (I didn’t want to see them end) and I’m allowing myself to endure the bad ones. I won’t say I’m not complaining because I do it mentally but I find the lessons in those unbearable experiences to balance it all out.

How was your week? Rant about it in the comment section.

Mid-week Moodiness, Dependency & People Pleasing

Mid-week Moodiness, Dependency & People Pleasing


I haven’t journaled in 4 or 5 days so I’m mentally cluttered and I woke up today in the worst mood because of it and other things. Journaling really saved my mental health, writing my emotions on paper has helped me stay sane and cope during this time of uncertainty but this temporary job makes me so tired at the end of the day! By the time I get home I just want to bathe, eat my dinner, spare 2 hours to talk to close friends/family and get in at least 2 hours of Spanish before I unwilling fall asleep.

I wrote this post on Samsung Notes during my lunch break today so I could publish it after I get home, yes it’s that bad.

So let’s unpack some mental stuff, I’m not independent (at least from my perspective), I’m too dependent on certain things and a specific person, my mom. My first introduction to people pleasing started with her, she’s the one human on this earth that I always try to do everything she asks but there have been moments when she said yes and I had to say no and I didn’t back down. This week I didn’t say no even though I should have.

If you’ve been reading my blog long enough, you already know I’ve been trying to set healthy boundaries and reduce my level of people pleasing and dependence but it hasn’t been working with my mom. I wish I could set clear boundaries but I can’t, I’m too dependent on her for certain things so there is no room for negotiations and I can’t stand the guilt that’s attached to me saying “no”. So I went to bed in a bad mood because I’m mad at myself, woke up in an awful state and I had this terrible sauce with my chicken meal for lunch, commuting is slowly killing me and I’m still not built for customer service.

I crave independence in all its best forms.

Girl in Her Twenties

With so much dampening my mood, I just want to be in a body of water, drifting with a blank mind and some Snoh Aalegra in the background; I need to go to the beach.

I also need to set better boundaries.

Sunday’s Thoughts. . . Let’s Talk

Sunday’s Thoughts. . . Let’s Talk

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I took a mini break from watching a movie that’s about to be my favourite movie no matter the ending and that says a lot; it is so good that I’m going to write a blog post about it (maybe tonight if the mood continues). It’s been raining all day and for those who don’t know, this is my type of weather: gloomy, chilly and wet. I’m surprise I wasn’t born in England because I would thrive there just because of the weather.

Why am I writing a blog post on Sunday? Well, I was talking to one of my closest friends today and usually we would have 2+ hours of conversations about our life, future goals, career paths and adulting stuff, basically it’s always deep conversations and I love that about us, he reminds me to never be complacent.

My birthday is around the corner (August 10, send all gifts through DHL and FedEx please lol), I’m going to be 23 which I’m really excited about because I’m in the best frame of mind for this chapter, the growing pains have been doing their thing and your girl has been evolving!

Today was just a reminder of how far I’ve come, I feel grateful more than ever for my mom and sister (I really want to be in the position to give them everything they deserve), I’m grateful for the small circle of friends I have (they’ve showed me that friendship is the true prize) and I’m grateful for this blog, my life, good health and these little moments both good and bad.

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Whenever I’m feeling uncomfortable, I know I’m going through a period of growth.

Girl in Her Twenties

Last year around this time I wasn’t the happiest, I felt very stuck and hopeless but this year is a completely different vibe and it really shows that bad days don’t last forever and the only constant in life is change; you just have to keep going.

So I want to know how are you feeling today? What’s on your mind? Let’s converse in the comment section (I’m in a good mood, all snuggled up and happy)

P.S. It’s my best friend’s birthday today, HAPPYYYYYYY BIRTHDAYYYYY O!! He keeps me sane so I don’t self-destruct on some of those bad days.

P.S.S This romance movie is really good, can you guess the name? I’ll give you a hint, it’s on Netflix and it’s a Filipino film.

P.S.S.S. I want to learn German and move to Liechtenstein and live my best small country life – insert my loud laugh -.