When did I write I Need to Read More? A month ago, maybe two. After posting that blog I decided to reach out to an author that I’ve been following on Instagram for a hot minute. I told her I’d love to review her books and she was kind enough to refer me to her publicist who sent the books within a week.
If you’ve been reading my blog then you know This Close To Okay has been on my reading list for a longggggg time. When I finally got it, I just sat and admired the book for a hot minute. Honestly, it is truly one of the best hardcover books I’ve seen. The book jacket is BEAUTIFUL, I think it’s the orange vibe that has me captivated. It lights up my room and I can’t help but stare at it from time to time. Add dye my hair bright orange to my list of things to do.
I welcome change with neither arms wide open nor arms closed shut . . . but it is welcomed
Girl in Her Twenties
I accidentally cut my short hair shorter.
After washing my hair Sunday morning, I thought it would be a good idea to clip the “dead ends” or split ends whichever term is more known to you. A clip turned into a huge accidental cut of the left section of my hair that further led to me having to cut more hair to even everything out.
I don’t hate it but I don’t love it, it’s different.
I’ve always wanted to get my hair professionally cut to get that 90’s Nia Long look but I was always too afraid at the same time. My hair made my head look less big in my opinion so my insecurity felt secure by it and the thought of not having that security heightened my reluctance to take that cutting step.
I feel like I’m on the verge of transition, change is coming.
For the last two weeks I’ve been feeling this need to mentally and emotionally prepare for change, I don’t know the form it’s coming in but I know it’s near. Maybe I’m weird but cutting my hair on Sunday just physically solidified what I already knew mentally, I’m in a periodof transition.
I’m nervous but excited, change is good (sometimes).
I don’t oppose or abet change, I usually wait and see how it feels since I’m a lukewarm person majority of the times. I told God in my prayers tonight that I’m ready for what’s next and I meant it, whatever that change or those changes are, I’m ready.
Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it turned into a butterfly.
I use this quote so often that I need to put it on one of the walls in my room, maybe next to that bookshelf I’m planning on getting. I like the evolution of a butterfly, could be the reason I’m hitching to get a butterfly tattoo but I admire its growth from something small to something admirable and beautiful; reminds me of me.
It’s 1:56 a.m. and I should be sleeping but I took some medication for my severe headache this afternoon and fell asleep and woke up a few hours ago and now my mind doesn’t want to sleep again so I thought writing a little might help me.
I’m two days late but I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas (see what I did there lol), all fun and jokes aside I really hope the holiday was good to each and everyone of you. I ATE, ATE AND ATE SOME MORE so I was very happy!
STARTING A BLOG IS NO EASY TASK! If I’m being honest which I try to be majority of the time, I thought it would have been simple; write, post, and boom you have a blog but then I realized it wouldn’t be that easy and that’s when worry and overthinking set in. Failing scares me, I know it’s meant to encourage you to keep going but sometimes it makes me stop and think “am I really doing the right thing? Stop while you can and save yourself from the misery of failing and crying about it”. I’m happy I didn’t listen to that inferior voice!
The summer is ending how it should for me, not what I expected but definitely how I needed it to. I am happy for many reasons: my mental health is really good at the moment I’m enjoying it for however long it is going to last, I’ve been writing poetry almost non-stop, my family and friends are okay and I actually remained consistent with my promise to post a blog every week for August. The consistency was amazing but I’m going back to my regular schedule of posting every 2 weeks it works better for me plus the next few months are going to be extremely busy.
I wrote this on the 13th of August 2020, I just woke up and decided to write something that’s healing for me because I had finally let all the hurt go in a previous poem – not sure if I’m going to share that one as yet – but I want to share this one.
I was always unhappy – grateful but unhappy nonetheless – whenever my birthday came around because I felt every year was showing me I’m still not where I wanted to be but I didn’t realise until now that God was showing me this moment and situation is the one I needed to be in. This year I am excited, happy and I just feel like this is going to be my best birthday ever.
HAPPY AUGUST! It’s my birth month and to commemorate it I will be posting a blog every week, yes, I said it, EVERY WEEK with a bonus post on my birthday so that will be a total of 6 blog posts, I am screaming internally but I am up for a challenge, now let’s get into my playlist. I don’t have a preference when it comes on to the different genres of music, my music taste is all over the place and I listen to anything that’s appealing to my ears. Some songs use explicit language like the f word, so I put the words explicit language beside that particular song that way you know.
Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.
– Martin Luther King Jr
Last month I said my first post for June would be on ‘Manifestation And Speaking Things Into Existence’ but with the current state of the world, I don’t have the desire to write about that topic until I speak on this one, my emotions, thoughts and feelings are all directed at the Black Lives Matter Movement.