It is 4:23 a.m., everything feels and sounds so calm and peaceful. 2 am to 5:30 am are my favourite hours, the world is sleeping and that’s when I feel most alive and awake. I can hear my thoughts, think clearly and my writing feels more like me.
I couldn’t decide what I wanted to write about, this post was meant to be written and published on Wednesday now its turned into a written and published Thursday post. I needed rest and I like writing from a place of inspiration and not obligation.
Faith or fear?
I’ve concluded that fear and faith can’t peacefully coexist, one will always make the other uncomfortable. I had to ask myself which feels better, to hold on or to let go? We hold on to feelings, habits, things, people, situations and places because they are familiar to us. They make us feel more at ease and comfortable, if we were to let go of some of these things because they no longer serve us then fear would sink in.
There is a particular feeling I’ve been trying to let go of. It doesn’t add value to my life and if anything it keeps me stuck and panicky. Yesterday, I told myself if I allow this fear to keep existing, I’m saying to God I don’t trust him. Am I going to hold on or let go? I tried to let go, I didn’t instantly become faithful because the fearful thoughts pop up spontaneously but I always try to counteract it with a few affirmations. I’m still trying and letting go in moderation – things take time right?
In this life we can’t allow fear to cripple us and steal our joy. I know easier said than done but it is true and you know it too. You have to choose where you want to reside, in a state of constant fear or a state of hope. Whatever decision you make has to be what’s best for you.
“There is no passion to be found playing small – in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living.”Nelson Mandela